Archive for January, 2012

pouring my heart out on this word processor is torture.

Pamela teaching her children (1743–45)

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Being able to adapt to the changes and come up with creative methods on instructing are one of the few things that define an effective educator. In line with being adaptive, keeping up with the changes in the academic world is also a characteristic, as well as a small burden, for any educator. This implies that being an educator goes beyond instructing; an educator has to constantly learn the said changes.

 

This is what scares me the most.

 

Barely a year into the program, and I already feel the pressure of becoming a decent educator rising. Expectations from the left and right, and even those behind me are slowly catching up. I keep learning about being an educator, but I do not know how to be an effective one. At first, when I was asked what aspects I should improve on myself as an educator, the first answer that I came up with was “everything”.

 

But why did I unconsciously answer ‘everything’?

 

I still do not feel confident that I know a lot about being an educator, especially one that handles the early childhood stage. I keep reading about how an early childhood educator makes a huge impact on the education of the child, and it keeps me on edge. As much as possible, I want to be the perfect teacher – I want to be the kind of educator that parents would feel comfortable leaving their child to. I believe that my classroom management skills are above average, as I apply them in the goings-on in my daily life, and so far, they have not failed me.

 

Grateful for my professors, I have already found out what kind of learner I am, and my educational philosophy. I find myself completely traditional – a visual learner and an essentialist in nature. Personally, knowing that I possess traits that are needed in an early childhood education teacher, I feel much more confident in myself. I know that in most preschools, despite the different curriculums, preschools want their students to learn the basics, something that an essentialist educator would gladly teach. Students at this stage are highly visual too; their attention is short, and visuals are among the top tools needed in order to catch the attention of the students. Who else can make an effective visual other than a visual learner himself?

 

Never in my entire life would I find that studying education would make me learn more about myself, not after my previous program. I used to think that Psychology would help me acquire information about myself; possessing an interpersonal intelligence, I guess it is of utmost importance to have a firm and stable knowledge of one’s self before venturing out into the open. I used to think, that if not Psychology, no other program would help me gain more insight about myself; and now, I am eating my words. Despite the results of various personality tests taken and interpreted, despite knowing what type of personality I possess, it was not enough. I became more aware of myself, but it did not give me direction on how to lead my life. My personality test results explained why I am behaving in such manner, but it never explained how such behaviour could help me improve. The small tests that I took in education gave me a specific view on my life; knowing my philosophy, finding role models, learning about the different aspects on being an efficient educator, and knowing what kind of learner I am all lead me into being a more effective human being. They made me conscious on how I act, and I learned how to detach myself from everything. I solve problems now by distancing myself away from the problem and see the whole issue from a third person’s point of view; I became more observant and careful of my words… I just appreciate how much I have changed.

 

I guess what I fear the most are my strategies and methods that I will use upon becoming a teacher. As an essentialist, I know for sure that I have the tendencies of becoming a traditional teacher. I fear that I may not be able to overcome this. I fear that I might constantly resort to lecture and direct instruction. I fear that I would lose control of myself and be dominating to my students. I also fear my lessons. I may know them by heart and soul, but they could all disappear once I stand in front of my students. I might stutter, keep forgetting what I’m trying to say and just lose confidence about myself entirely.

 

I have a handful of things to improve on, and I do not know where to start.

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it will rain.

call me someone who lives under the rock, but it’s only been recent since I appreciated this song. I used to be quite a fan of twilight, but then I grew out of it. I already knew the story, and Meyer described the scenes quite vividly to the point that I can already see how it’ll be done in the movie. Although, it seems that they made the movie a bit more romantic and all… I still find it the same. Anyway, I tried not to re-acquaint myself with anything about Breaking Dawn, which includes listening to this song.

However, when I gave Sungha Jung’s version of It Will Rain a chance (around December 2011), I just fell in love with the way he played it. It had so much romance and love in it that it’s already difficult to compare. He made me wish that I could fall in love again (just for a moment only though!)

After that, I proceeded to listening to Bruno Mars‘ original, and I fell in love with it more. There is just something about a Filipino’s voice that’s so suited for ballads. Bruno Mars has this sad, husky tone in his voice which makes it more effective. He sings like he’s always hoarse, which sounds like his begging for love. He’s just amazing. I wish the video could improve though, I mean, one can do more than just sulk right? (see 500 Days of Summer). I bet scenes from that film would really make an impact and it’ll suit the story more. :))

Then just a while ago (even while I’m typing this blog), I heard of Alex Goot’s version of It Will Rain. Bruno Mars’ is better, but he just captured the emotion. It’s just amazing. :]

I bet there’s more cover of It Will Rain, but I don’t mind looking for them. 🙂 Sungha Jung and Alex Goot are my top favorites when it comes to making covers. 🙂

sulking.

i just found out that the man whom i think is the one for me, loves another girl. he even boldly asked her out for a meal!

 

funny thing is, my man and i have never met.. nor will even understand each other if ever the miraculous meeting ever arrived. the moment i heard about the news, i shed tears like i was being cheated on.

 

is this considered normal?

this pretty much captures what i feel inside.

New Alphabet – an Environmental Print?!

A is for App Store...

LOVE-ly to catch

i totally agree on this one. I mean, what else can be the reason why we’re searching for it?

Call me a Summer, but I really think that we should start loving and enjoying ourselves even before we THINK of finding someone to love and enjoy with.

LOVE-ly to catch

B1A4’s Sky

so here they are!! it’s completely different from their music, but it’s quite good. the message of the song’s also good. 🙂 i so love my CNU! and finally, Gongchan has a decent part in the song!! Hope they’ll start giving him more!!

 

for anyone interested (such as i am), here you go!

GET ME!!

 

B1A4’s first OST!

B1A4 will be revealing their first OST song “Sky” through SBS drama Take Care of us, Captain (first broadcast at 9.55PM KST tonight)!

cr: FlightB1A4

 

It will be the main theme song for this drama, and will be released on online music portals by tonight!!